Thank you all. The outpouring of support here is heartwarming during this surreal nightmare we’re going through. Today, we are in ICU with our boy because he has pneumonia on top of everything else. His tests yesterday had oddly inconclusive results. His oncologist (oh, fuck. fuck. fuck. He has an oncologist.) told us yesterday that it’s probably not the common childhood leukemia they thought it was, and is, perhaps, a much more rare variety. We are awaiting many more test results to find out what this is. The only comfort I take in this potential diagnosis is that this hospital is where the rare leukemia is most studied. No talk of success rates with this one though, only that it involves very aggressive chemo.
We are barely holding up. I alternate between just doing whatever it takes in the moment to keep our son comfortable to completely falling apart. J and I both fell on the floor of our room yesterday while our boy was in his surgery, and we bawled our eyes out. But crying doesn’t feel good, and honestly, neither does looking much farther than the next five minutes. We have to get him past the pneumonia first. Then we can deal with the cancer. (Oh, hell. I just wrote it, didn’t I?)
So many of you have offered to help, and I so appreciate it. If you live in our area, or you want to send something (as some of you suggested), you can email me at reproducinggenius at gmail dot com about it. I may try to come up with a PayPal donation link. I so don’t want to ask for money, but even a few dollars can help us with various costs we’re accruing as we go through this. More than anything, you can keep us in your thoughts, and keep providing these lovely comments here. It really does mean a lot to have this support.