I just caught three birds on my balcony stealing the coconut husk that we have lining some flower baskets. My cat scared them away, but they came right back. I’m cool with sharing so long as they don’t make a mess. I rather enjoy having the birds on our balcony. I think they are Western Scrub Jays.
But this post isn’t really meant to be about birds.
Last night, I had a couple of dreams that were disturbing. They are part of a new series of dreams I have been having where I feel a presence–or more than one presence–and I’m scared. Last night, a medium was involved and was trying to help me figure out who the presences were with no success. He ended up telling me he would pray for me, and this didn’t comfort me much. I found myself surrounding myself in circles of sea salt, lighting candles and sage, and generally trying to protect myself and the baby.
In most cases in these dreams, I don’t necessarily feel like I’m in danger. I simply feel as though some unknown entity is nearby, almost like a stranger is lurking around and watching me. When I wake up from these dreams, that feeling doesn’t go away. I feel like there are entities here, and I don’t know who they are.
I should back up a little. I am a skeptic, but I do believe that individuals from the spirit world come around from time to time. I saw too much evidence of this after J’s parents passed–throughout my whole life really. But I don’t know what this particular thing is. Our apartment isn’t haunted. I definitely don’t feel that is the case. It feels oddly spiritually clean, in fact. I just don’t know.
Sometimes the energies feel curious or like they’re observing, but most often, I’m scared of them. J suggests I ask them who they are, but in the midst of these dreams, I’m never lucid enough to do so. I am inclined to want them to stop., but I have this funny feeling that they are only going to get worse.
I’m sure this all sounds a little crazy to some degree, but now J tells me she has seen the cats staring at what appear to be blank walls, acting as though another person is in the room. What am I supposed to do with that?